(by Blue Hour)
(by ~ Floydian ~ )
BABY VIOLET FAITH PENNINGTON WAS BORN!
She is 6lbs 12oz and 19.5in
She was born at 9:19am
And I got to hold her when she wasn’t even 12 hours old yet! :D
Yesterday was a blessing but yet very hard. I got out of work and drove pretty much to Felix’s house…. Just for him to tell me he’s not home yet. Then I drove almost all the way to my moms, for my dad to call me and have me drive back to work to let him into the building because he didn’t have his key…
After that, I went to my mom’s, packed Travis’ shit, and drove to his “place”. This was definitely one of the hardest things I’ve ever done. He told me if I ever needed anything to call him. I was crying the whole time talked to me. When he got out of my car he didn’t cry, hug me, kiss me - none of that. All he said was “see you later”. I truly think he’s fine.
I’m fine too. The old me would’ve gotten out of my car and chased him. Ran to him, tried to make things worse. Not this time. Even though I wanted to, somewhat, I didn’t. I drove away, crying. I didn’t get out of the car and go to him because yes, he made me happy. Yes, I love him - but I deserve to be treated better than how I was and I was not happy in the relationship. I like the idea of the relationship with him, better than the actual relationship.
Plus, Felix is such an amazing guy - he’s patient, kind, caring, handsome, funny, respectful, he treats me right, and he has a lot of qualities I want in a guy that I couldn’t find in Travis. I’m very happy I’m with Felix.
» Furthest Thing - Drake
So after all of this happened, I drove home. I was laying in bed, thinking about taking a nap when Lesley texts me. Her parents can’t watch her kids after all like they told her they can. So I pack my stuff and head to Lesley’s to watch the kiddos overnight so her and Ryan can be at the hospital together. I love so much that I’m apart of their family. I love them. I am so blessed.
Happy Birthday Violet. (:
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